Running with my happy feelings :-)

     Man alive that sucked!!! I have been trying to post for the last week on my thoughts about my appt last Thur & for some reason I just kept getting an error code. I was finally able to get this all figured out today. I didn't realise how much I just need to write everything down. It's like a form of release for me. It's almost like it makes it real once it is written in front of me. I don't know but I am sure glad that I am back!!
   So lets get to my thoughts..... On my last post I was concerned that all my coughing was maybe coming from the cancer growing in my lungs again but as I was flying home from my sisters it became very clear that I just had a good old fashion cold. Man this cold really just kicked my rear! I was down for a few days & am now starting to feel so much better. I had been thinking that I had my Dr appt this week but on Wed night I got the reminder call that my appt was on Thur morning. I was thinking Wed night that I really needed to reschedule it because I was feeling awful but when Thur morning rolled around I knew that I needed to go & that maybe he could just check on the cold as well. So I get the boys off to school & head to the Dr's. Now I have to say that when I started coughing last week I did check the tumor in my collar bone. We left it there so that we could see any changes that may be happening with the cancer without any scans done. When I felt it I thought it seems smaller & I was having a little harder time finding it but sometimes I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me so I really didn't want to get my hopes up. When Dr S. came into the room we did our usual little visit then he started his exam. He always checks my collar bone first. He is quite.... checking first the right side where the tumor is then the left then back to the right.... The silence is almost deafening but he then smiles & pats my back & says "The tumor is smaller & very soft". I just want to jump up & hug him!! I don't feel like I have gotten much good news lately from him. Just that we are controlling the cancer & its not growing, not that that's bad new but not good news either. So what was the plan now? We will continue on the meds that I am taking now for 1 more round then we will do a lung scan in 3 weeks to really see the progress. Dr S. seem positive & I was just so happy to hear that things are shrinking. So I went away from this appt feeling great right now. Feeling that all my hard work in changing my diet & my exercise routine is finally paying off, that I really am not doing this all for nothing. It's a great feeling right now & I just want to keep running with this feeling for as long as I can! I will know more in 2 weeks but for now I am just HAPPY!