Whole Brain Radiation

    Well the news is in and instead of going with Gamma Knife again they decided that it would be better to do Whole Brain Radiation. I honestly wasn't surprised when the Dr told me. I had actually gotten a call from both of my Dr offices a few days before to schedule appointments and even though no one had said anything to me on the phone I knew that this was something different then what had been done before so I had completely prepared myself before I went into this appointment. I guess I should have also prepared my support system that was there with me as when the news came down I could just see her facial features change and how upset she was. My dear friend Jennifer has been a Rock for me!! She has been to almost every appointment with me and always knows what questions to ask when we get new news and I am sometime in a blur and can't even think to ask at that moment. These appointment are sometime very intense and she has been so strong and helped support me every step of the way. I feel bad that I didn't for warn her and I know how hard it is to feel like the rug has just been pulled out from under your feet. I only mention this because I want Jennifer to know how much I love and appreciate her and everything that she has done for me. I couldn't get through all of this without wonderful friends such as her and am thankful I have people like this in my life!
  So moving on to the Radiation.... I will be starting this on Monday and it will be 5 days a week for 3 weeks. I am actually feeling a little better about doing this. The Dr said yesterday that it really gets a bad rap and really isn't as bad as everyone makes it sound, although it is whole brain radiation. Only time will tell how bad it is and believe me I sure will be speaking my mind about it! I will lose my hair again in about 2 weeks or so after treatment starts it should grow back again in about 2 to 3 months although there is a possibility that it will be thinner. My hair has always been very thick so thinner may not be to bad, :-) we will see. I will also be very exhausted for a few months so I may be kind of unsocial for a bit. Just bare with me and hopefully I will get back to my normal self soon. I am feeling good about this decision. There were just to many things going on in my head that they couldn't  say for sure if it was or wasn't cancer and we know for sure that there were 4 new tumors. So to do the whole brain radiation just seems like the right way to go right now. I am at peace with this and know that God has a plan for me that things will work out the way that they are supposed to.