Where oh where is my brain?

     Is it the effects of Gamma Knife treatment or the effects of Chemo that make me totally feel like I am losing my mind? I am really not so sure but I can tell that things are changing. I can send a text an email or a comment on facebook and for some reason I am thinking just what i want to say but when it is typed out and sent I will read it back and there are complete words that I have left out or an entirely different word in place of the one I wanted. Does this make any sense at all? Like tonight I meant to use the word shake but when the message was sent it was shack. The funny thing is I try and proof read everything I send but for some reason I am not catching this stuff and really it is just making me feel so dumb. Now I understand making mistakes like this every once in a while but I am finding that it is always happening now. This is not me! Sometimes I so miss the old Connie. The Connie that could say what needed to be said without 20 mistakes in what she was saying. I am almost at the point of not wanting to say anything because I am just so frustrated with it all. Do I just need to relax and know that all my friends know what is going on and they understand? Of course!! It is just so much easier said then done though. I know that I am so much harder on myself then any of my friends would be but I just can't shake this feeling of feeling so dumb. I know that I forget things now as well. If I don't put it into my calender right away there is not much of a chance of remembering an appointment and really I am finding that I am trying to write just about everything down so I can remember. Ughhhh, part of it could be due to my age but not even a year ago I didn't have all these issues. So I guess the ranting in this post tonight is more for each of you to know whats going on and maybe a little understanding just to know that I am not completely nuts.