A smile still on my face...

Well... I had my appointment with my Dr this afternoon after I had a great morning with Colby's class on a field trip to the Performing Art theater in Davis. It was a great field trip & the best part about it was when Colby leaned over to me & whispered in my ear "I am so glad you came with me mommy. I love you" How could this just not melt my heart? I knew at that moment that I was right where I needed to be. So on with the results... I had already prepared myself for the worst & knew that the cancer in my lungs had started to grow again. I was expecting for my Dr to tell me that we would be starting up on the chemo again & be prepared to get sick & lose the hair all over again, WTH!! I just had my hair colored & am feeling kinda pretty right now. Was I really going to have to do this again? The answer to this big question was NO!! I do have a 20% increase of cancer growth in my lungs but what we are going to try is a oral medication of 2 pills that I take daily that really shouldn't be to hard on the body. With this I may have some nausea but my Dr really feels that it shouldn't be to bad. We will try this for the next month or so & see how my body & the cancer responds. My prayer at this point is that my body along with these drugs can fight it for a while so that I can enjoy as much time with my family & friends as I can, The minute I start back on the IV chemo things always get so much harder & I find myself getting so grumpy with people. I don't like that & that's not the person I want to be. So when I look back on today I would have to say it was one successful day & hey, I am still smiling. All though the smile may also be from the thought of at this time next week I will be on the cruise laying in the sun enjoying more of the beautiful things that God has to offer us. I am so excited & just cant wait to see & do things that I have never done before. I am sure there will be lots of pictures for all to see soon.